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Things have quietened down for a few days. I feel like I haven't had inner peace since June this year. If that even makes sense. I just got back to Johor Bahru and I'm sick. Happens all the time. Its like I'm allergic to this place. I've spent the last month or so traveling around Malaysia. Kyle and I went on a road trip again and we decided to cover more places this time. We started our trip from KLIA and ended it at Johor Bahru. The trip itself was mostly good except for the part where we got into a very big fight. And I'm not sure whether things will be the same again. We're still together but it doesn't feel the same anymore. But I don't give up just like that, especially with our fourth anniversary coming soon. So lets see how this story tells itself.

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I feel uncomfortable when I don't have plans. I have plans for my free days as well. I always need to know what is happening next. Ever since everyone found out that I'm basically done with studies, people have been asking me what I'm going to do next. Have I gotten a job? Where am I going to work and what not. All these questions make me very uncomfortable because I don't know the answer to any of it myself. And a lot of people assume that I say I don't know because I don't want to tell anyone. But that's not true. As of right now, I'm just trying to settle last minute paperwork for back up plans which popped out of nowhere. I'm not entirely sure that I want to do this at all even though I'm sort of committed to it now. More updates on that once I know what's happening.
It gets tiring at times because of my need to be in control of every single thing. And I'm glad I have Kyle to fall back on at times. He's in Singapore right now wi…