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I wrote about a friend of mine in entry 804. She Whatsapped me today, and to make the entire conversation short, she wants to be my friend on Whatsapp and not in real life. So I told her I quit. Like, I really did. And then she said I was being unfair. Are you kidding me? You don't want to be seen with me in public because your boyfriend doesn't like me.
When her boyfriend thought that there was something going on between me and her, I asked her to tell him that I'm gay. I'm not even out and God knows who he will tell. But I didn't want to be the reason for her to breakup with her boyfriend. And I wanted us to remain as friends. 
I'm sorry. But I will never be anyone's friend if you want to keep me as a secret. I don't care what your reason is. Her reason being that her boyfriend is uncomfortable coz I'm gay. Bitch please. He's not uncomfortable. He's being an asshole.
I remember us talking about a hypothetical scenario where she has a boyf…

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It's been a while since I wrote here the last time. Honestly I'm very stressed about the final exams. I mean, who isn't right? My classmates make it even worse. The only discussion during lunch time or any other time for that matter these days would be about a systolic murmur or causes of SVT or something. It's extremely stressful. And unlike a lot of others, I get stressed when I don't know the answer to something they're discussing. So basically each day I have to see them is an ordeal.
Super excited for January. I think that's the only thing that keeps me going now. Kyle and I are going to Bali in January. It's more or less like an anniversary getaway. Supposed to have been in February but I'm busy in February so we decided to go earlier.
By this time next month, I'll be wondering whether I passed the exams. Hopefully I do.

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I've been having trouble sleeping lately again. Maybe I'm subconsciously thinking about something too much.
Collected my laptop from HP on Friday. Quite frustrated because the fan sound is exceptionally loud now. And people keep asking me to switch to MacBook. Maybe it is really good. But it's way too expensive for me right now. For the specifications I want that is.
So I just realised that it has been a while since Kyle moved in with me. Initially it was coz I was sick. Then he started staying over more often and he has been officially living with me for slightly over two months now I think. And to think of it, I am very happy. Mainly because despite our differences and the arguments we have, we are able to talk and solve them. I mean, which couple does not argue? For me, a relationship doesn't feel real if everything is going too smoothly. Or maybe that's coz of the previous failed three relationships I guess. I don't know.
Sometimes it is really hard to fin…